My Split Personality

I like you, I admire you,
And I'm always jealous of you,
All those make me hate you.

I wanna be like you,
I can't stop thinking of you,
My life is full with you,
My dream is you, I hate you.

All your thoughts influence me,
Your feel is considered in my decision,
I just wanna be happy,
As happy as you be, I hate myself.

I can't find myself, my true self,
That's make me wanna be you,
The true color is you,
But I wanna be me, you are me.

I'm tired of this life,
I'm alone and have no future,
What I'm gonna be? What I'm gonna do?

I can't tell my purpose of life,
Sometimes I feel better if I'm not exist,
Everyday I feel dying
May god take my life, as soon as possible?
I love you...